On January 14th at 5pm, my Papa heard the call of God and went home to Heaven while surrounded by his wife and family. This last summer, only seven months ago, he was diagnosed with an aggressive lung and bone cancer, and he fought it with all his might. He never gave up, because he loved his family.
My Papa taught me so many things growing up. He taught me the importance of hard work and perseverance. He taught me to stand when I had fallen, he taught me how to laugh even in pain. He taught me how to love. He loved my Nana with a love more evident and true than I have ever seen. He loved her whole-heartedly for nearly 54 years. His love inspires me in my upcoming marriage. His love encourages me to be honest, faithful, true, and full of laughter. I strive to one day have a love similar to that of my Papa and my Nana.
When I was younger, my Papa would ask me to sing in front of his friends because he knew I loved to sing. Later on, he would read my writings, my fiction stories, and always provide feedback on what worked and what could be better. I remember one vacation, he sat on the balcony of our hotel for hours reading my book and telling me “This is good.” Throughout my entire life, he encouraged me and reminded me that I could accomplish anything I set my mind to. It is because of him that I was brave enough to work on becoming an author.
My Papa will not see me walk down the aisle. He will not read my book when it gets published. But it is BECAUSE of my Papa that I strive for a loving marriage. It is BECAUSE of my Papa that I will keep working toward my goals. His memory will continue to propel me forward and when I see him again in Heaven, we will have a lot to catch up on.
I love you Papa. I will miss you, more so than I can say, but I am so glad you are no longer in pain. I love you.
I’m so, so sorry. Losing someone we love deeply and who has impacted our lives so significantly is never easy. I was brought to tears reading your story because it reminded me so much of my Grandma. She’s the one I wrote the poem about that I submitted to your end of summer contest. She taught me so many things, and most importantly, she was the one who encouraged me to pursue my dream to write, just as your Papa did for you. I dedicated my novel to her. It’s been almost 6 years since she said goodbye to this world. So I can tell you from my own experience, you will miss him everyday. Some days will be tougher than others. But the truly beautiful thing is that you will see him in so many things you do as you move forward. You will feel him with you on your wedding day, you will know he is reading over your shoulder as you write your stories…you will feel his presence near you when you need him most. It will bring you peace and comfort, even as it brings you sadness. Just know that beautiful things will transpire throughout your grieving process. It will give you hope. I’ll be praying for you and yours through this time.
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Heather, thank you for this lovely note. I cried when I read it because you are so right. Even though I know he is gone and he is in Heaven, I do feel him. I feel his memory whenever I go to his house, I feel his encouragement when I sing, when I write. Thank you for your encouragement and your understanding. Thank you for your prayers.
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Awww, I didn’t mean to make you cry. But I truly know how difficult your experience is. Hang in there. And watch for those rainbows to show up after the storm. 💙
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I’m deeply sorry for your loss. May he rest in the arms of God.
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So sorry for your loss. Glad you have such wonderful memories of him. He sounds like a great man.
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He was an incredible man. He wasn’t perfect, but he was the best representation of a husband, a father, a son, a grandfather I ever knew.
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Blessings! OM
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Such wonderful memories of your papa. May they overshadow the few bad ones. You describe a man that truly loved his family. That is the person you and your family will remember.
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Thank you Darnell, that is what I will try to do. Remember him as he was before the cancer, how strong he was during the cancer, and how happy we both will be when we meet again.
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A beautiful tribute to your papa, KaylaAnn. He may not be with you physically as you walk down the aisle but he is there in your heart.
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Yes, he definitely will be. Thank you Eugenia
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My thoughts and prayers goes out to you and your family KaylaAnn. God bless you and your family.
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Thank you MissM
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Sorry for your loss, Kayla. Your post is such a beautiful way to keep your memories alive and pay tribute.
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Thank you K.M. Allen
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I’m sorry for your loss but I’m glad that you had such a great relationship with him.
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Thank you so much Laci, I am too. I’ve been blessed by my family.
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